Wrestling with God

After returning home from the retreat, my roomate wanted to know if I was for sure going, and replied with "Yeah!" She was concerned because she knew that I had such a heart for the Muslim world and believed my gift was evangelism and was worried I wasn't making the right decision. Well at first I was honestly upset, because I knew she was just trying to help me through this huge decision and quite frankly knew she was right.

For about a week, I just prayed and prayed- was this God's will or mine?

I was just about to email Josh that I wasn't going to go, but I realized I had to talk to him and be honest with where my heart was.

So I called, we talked and wow, what an encouraging talk! He told me he also had a heart for the Muslim world, that he knew exactly how I felt, because he was there before trying to make a decision of what God was telling him, and that to continue praying about and they would as well :)

I wanted to know so badly if this was God's will, and continued to pray and pray and pray asking for clarity- a few days later- I received a bucket of clarity, that God did in fact want me on this trip!

I felt such peace, I emailed Josh and told him and know am officially on the team!